The Embodied Heart Retreat

USA 2025 with Bela Crowder

A Journey Back To Yourself

The Embodied Heart is not a course or a program. It’s a remembering. A coming home.

Together, we gather in the quiet power of presence. We feel what’s ready to be felt. We meet what’s true.

Each retreat is held with immense care - spacious, slow, and sacred. For anyone ready to be more honest with themselves, more intimate with life, and more rooted in love.

You don’t need to be good at this. You just need to be willing.

Dare to feel

If you ever experience…

  • The frustration of finding yourself in repetitive patterns or situations

  • Entangled in stories and beliefs that feed into your fears, shame, or feelings of unworthiness

  • Relationships where you feel unmet or misunderstood

  • Inability to access your truth and take decisive action

  • Disconnection from the awe and wonder of life

  • Social anxiety that inhibits you from being yourself

  • Feeling like you’re on auto-pilot, caught in a relentless hustle, feeling disconnected from the essence of living.

This retreat is for you.

At The Embodied Heart Retreat, you will…

  • Cultivate a powerful relationship with your pain, fear, and anger, transforming them into sources of strength.

  • Build deep, meaningful relationships where your true self is seen and valued.

  • Master your emotional landscape, turning reactive impulses and habitual shutdown into profound wisdom that nurtures your true self.

  • Recognise and heal patterns of self-abandonment, fostering a renewed commitment to your truth.Develop a trusting bond with your heart, allowing it to be your guide and support through life's journey.

  • Embrace radical honesty, connecting deeply with what you’re authentically feeling and desiring.

  • Enhance bodily awareness and safety, expanding your ability to embrace every aspect of your being.

The Embodied Heart is an empowering journey where you will embrace authentic feeling and embodied vulnerability.

Unlike traditional therapy, this practice avoids excessive analysis or endless revisiting of past events. Instead, it encourages acknowledging the past as it arises in the present moment.

By learning to truly feel, you'll discover that healing and integration naturally occur. 

Locations & Dates

San Clemente, California

Osho Villa | https://www.oshovilla.com

6 Cresta Del Sol, San Clemente, CA 92673

*Stay off site - we’ll support you in finding nearby accommodations.*

3-Day Retreat

Friday, September 5 – Sunday, September 7, 2025

10:00 AM – 6:00 PM daily

2 meals/day will be prepared by a chef and provided

$750

4-DAY RETREAT

Thursday, September 11 – Sunday, September 14, 2025

10:00 AM – 6:00 PM daily

2 meals/day will be prepared by a chef and provided

$1,000

**Attend both retreats and receive 10% off ($1,575 for both retreats)

Lawrence, Kansas

Oak Ridge Retreat | Lawrence, Kansas

A quiet sanctuary just outside the city.

*Stay onsite or nearby - options available.*

5-Day Retreat

Wednesday, September 24 – Sunday, September 28, 2025

Arrive by 4:00 PM Wednesday

Depart at 6:00 PM Sunday

Three meals will be prepared by a chef and provided

$1,160

“I am so grateful to Bela for teaching me and providing me with the space to grow my self awareness. The insight gained through the Embodied heart have given me what I needed, to be able to embark upon the next stage of my life. I am scared but I feel confident that I am enough to hold myself through this no matter what.”

- Claire Darnell, London

What’s Included

Daily guided sessions with Bela

Chef-prepared nourishing meals

1:1 time to work with Bela

A deeply held container for personal exploration

Spaciousness for integration, rest, and reflection

A heart-led community of fellow travellers

What is The Embodied Heart?

The Embodied Heart is an embodied exploration of feeling.

To fully inhabit our felt experience, we begin the process of recognising where we are unwilling to feel.

This reveals all the mechanisms we use to avoid, suppress, resist or even identify with what we are feeling. We don't do this to judge, but to meet ourselves where we are, with the transformational force of Love.

The practice of truly meeting ourselves in each moment, with complete honesty, gives us the ability to be vulnerable, intimate and authentic. The process can be confronting. It can show us where we've been hiding, lying to ourselves, and disconnected.

In the space, we welcome all of your human experience and show you how to be with it, and how to Love it all.

What people are saying about The Embodied Heart

“The work is so profound because it meets you exactly where you are… It’s an in-road to your direct experience.”

Maja

“This work has allowed me to access real deep parts of myself, it’s allowed me to access more of my heart, more of my honesty, more of my vulnerability.”

Jordan

“Bela came in and helped me access the truth that I don’t know that I can’t be loved if I’m not {contributing to something}… And That’s something that i yearn for. I want to be loved here, just as I am.”

Ellee

The Embodied Heart Retreat provides you with an immersive group experience that will support you to develop an intimate relationship with your human feeling heart.

You will learn how to feel rather than react to life.

The retreat is curated to support you to honour yourself, and cultivate internal safety to welcome your felt experience.

Housing (Kansas only)

Private & shared room options available

Full property rental split among participants

There are 3 bedrooms available for an additional fee per room for 3 nights. Sunday night stay is available if needed and pricing will be reviewed on an individual basis.

Bedroom 1: Queen bed private room (can sleep up to 2): $575

Bedroom 2: Full sized bed private room (sleeps 1): $350

Bedroom 3: Queen bed private room (can sleep up to 2): $575

Scholarships & Payment Plans

We are committed to making this work accessible and inclusive.

• A limited number of partial scholarships are available for those with financial need. Please reach out to inquire and share a bit about your circumstances and intentions.

• Payment plans are available upon request. We are happy to work with you to create a payment structure that feels supportive and manageable.

• A non-refundable deposit of $250 is required to reserve your space. Your spot is not confirmed until the deposit has been received.

• Final payment is due by September 1, 2025.

To inquire about scholarships, payment plans, or to secure your space, please contact Meera or Marissa directly at meerakharbanda91@gmail.com or marissa.goldenstein@gmail.com

Registration

We keep each retreat intimate - space is limited.

To register or ask a question, reach out directly:

Contact Meera or Marissa at meerakharbanda91@gmail.com or marissa.goldenstein@gmail.com

Venmo, Zelle, or check accepted.

Payment plans available.

This is for you if…

  • You feel a stirring to slow down and meet yourself

  • You long for a more intimate, embodied connection to life

  • You’re navigating transition, loss, or a call to deepen

  • You’re ready to feel - with gentleness and honesty

Meet Bela

 Bela Crowder is a somatic facilitator and creative devoted to truth, beauty, and presence. Her work is a living invitation to return - again and again - to the heart.

Meet the Team

  • ALPHAMAMA (Anita)

    As an arts and healing practitioner, Alpha bridges the soulful and the tangible. A champion for uninhibited human expression, Alpha has been profoundly moved by the transformative power of Bela's work. Her ultimate vision? To empower individuals to express themselves authentically, holding love at the centre.

  • Alice Night

    Alice Night is a singer, writer and creativity coach. Her music invites people to feel by calling the audience powerfully into the present moment and reaching the heart through poetry and storytelling. Her art and teaching encourage depth, play, honesty and transformation.

  • Laine Tracey

    Psychotherapist and Provisional Psychologist. Laine advocates for embracing the full breadth of our humanity—both our deepest ache and deepest beauty. The practice of feeling has supported her in cultivating a rich intimacy with experience and the freedom that comes from a growing capacity to meet life as it is.

If we truly seek to know and be ourselves, we have to learn to feel. It is through feeling that we gather, forgive, and love our sleeping parts.

Through feeling we remember who we are.

FAQ

  • This retreat is an opportunity to immerse yourself deeply into the intimate space of your own heart. THe main intention of this retreat is to support you to be yourself, and you can expect a space that is held in love and safety so that this can occur. You can expect a space where all of you is welcome.

    Structurally, what this looks like is supporting you to drop out of your heart and into your embodied, felt experience. This will be facilitated through group or partnered practices, Bela working with people 1-1 with group witnessing, and other supportive embodiment exercises. We will be assisted by other facilitators who will also offer certain practices that encourage a deepening into honesty and authenticity.

  • You will receive more of a schedule when you arrive, however you can expect that:

    Each day, there will be morning embodiment practices, daily Embodied Heart sessions, space for integration & rest, and gentle evening activities.

    Breakfast, lunch, and dinner will be fully catered for, and there will be opportunities for group or solo nature walks, sauna/pool sessions, and time for socialising/connecting with your fellow participants.

  • Even though The Embodied Heart is incredibly effective online, there is always a distinct difference experiencing any kind of embodiment work in person, particularly when in a group environment.

    The retreat is different in that we will be completely immersed together in our experience of The Embodied Heart work. Each day we will be in session, delving deep into the practice of feeling, both individually and together.

    An immersion is a powerful way to dive deep into your practice without the day-to-day distractions, and to really allow yourself to sink into the work. Being held in a container is incredibly supportive for cultivating safety, which encourages more of us to reveal and unravel.

    We will also be graced with the spaciousness of nature and luxurious facilities that will encourage our integration of the work, as well as morning and evening activities to invite a deeper experience of how to really incorporate the practices deeper into your daily life.

  • Yes, you can still join. This retreat is available for anyone ready to commit to their own personal transformation, and journey the next step of their emotional evolution and embodiment of authenticity and truth.

  • It is preferable that you have experienced some level of embodiment and/or self-development work before coming to the retreat. This includes meditation, breathwork, somatic therapy, archetypal embodiment, temple training, and so on. When you apply, you will have a call with Bela to work out if this retreat is the right experience for you.

  • The Embodied Heart retreat is an immersion that is made up of practices and experiences for the purpose of your personal evolution. This is not a training where you will leave with practices to teach other people. It is recommended that the practices we do together on the retreat are not used in your own therapeutic or teaching services. This is for your own personal experience of deepening into your own intimate feeling practice and embodiment.

  • Fair Oak Farm is a peaceful retreat nestled in the rolling countryside of East Sussex, just 1.5 hours from London. This award-winning venue blends rustic charm with modern comfort, offering a variety of unique accommodations. Stay in beautifully designed barns, eco-lodges, treehouses, and shepherd huts, each thoughtfully crafted to provide a cozy and private retreat. With private gardens, scenic walkways, and tranquil surroundings, Fair Oak Farm creates the perfect setting for rest, connection, and renewal.

  • It is important to note that the space Bela offers is quite distinct from most therapeutic or self-development spaces/modalities. The Embodied Heart provides you with an immersive group experience that will support you to develop an intimate relationship with your human feeling heart. You will learn how to feel rather than react to life. The experience is curated to support you to honour yourself in ways you haven’t yet known how, and to open into vulnerability while cultivating the internal safety and capacity to truly welcome your honest felt experience.

  • All linen and 2 towels per guest are provided. Bathrooms offer bath mats, hand towels, body wash, shampoo & conditioner, and hair dryers. Each room is stocked with blankets and hot water bottles. The first aid kit is located in the Main House laundry/storage room.

    The water provided at the venue is delicious bore water sourced from the property, and is filtered via natural crushed marble for a balanced pH of 7.

  • TBA

  • Phone reception can be limited in The Pocket, but there is wifi provided for the Main House space which is also accessible from most buildings.

    • Journal

    • Water bottle

    • Clothes that are comfortable and versatile, for lots of sitting and movement practice

    • Any personal items you need for six days away

    • A special item for the altar

  • Participants are welcome on-site from 3:30pm on the 9th. We begin the first session at 5:30pm.

    On the last day (14th), we all need to be checked out of the venue by 9am. We will have a small closing session in the morning before check out.

  • You will be sent a meditation to support your practice in the lead up to the retreat. This is not mandatory, but highly recommended, as it will offer you an insight into the practices that we will be exploring on the retreat, and prepare you to go deeper into your experience.

    There will also be a group call one week before the retreat, to support the group connection. This call will be recorded, however it is recommended that you join so we can begin to cultivate intimacy within the group.

  • A deposit of $500 is required to secure your place on the retreat, or you can pay in full upfront. From there you can commit to a payment plan which will be secured through Acuity.

  • The Embodied Heart retreat is a non-refundable event. If you have committed but are no longer able to attend the event, you may transfer your payment towards another offering with Bela. This includes all Embodied Heart events (online and immersions), astrology readings, and mentorship.

  • The Embodied Heart is the next step in your emotional evolution if you have tried various other modalities and feel like nothing ever really changes for you. That you experience the high of “figuring it out” or something new, but really you’re getting lost in an endless web of personal shadow work. It’s for you if you feel like you spend more time managing your reaction to the perceived threat of feeling rather than actually reaching the core.

  • You may have noticed that this is something I am very discerning about: that there is a huge difference between emotion and feeling.

    Emotion is a reaction to feeling shaped by your ego’s interaction with your felt experiences. These reactions are linked to your beliefs and identity construct.

    Authentic feeling is the act of embracing the present moment within your body, as your visceral felt experience arrises. This is separate from any mental interpretations or assigned meanings.

  • The easiest way to know is if you are in your head. What this means is you are trying to “figure out” who you are and using your known patterns, ideas, and experiences. When you are not truly feeling, you are moving through life habitually, following patterns and addictions rather than being yourself.

Are you ready to embrace more of you?